After my post about the Utah Chocolate Show (which, by the way, is going very well and I'm worn out, but in a good way) Keeley and A.Riley were curious on how I'm managing to cope with my chocolate addiction, while surrounded by it.
To be honest, I'm doing extremely well.
Keeley said it would be like putting an alcoholic in a whiskey store to take her to a chocolate show. Keeley, I absolutely hear you. I was to chocolate what an addict is to cocaine. I had to have it.
But it all goes back to what I was saying before. I truly, literally got down on my knees and asked Heavenly Father to take away my craving, and He did. I do not even crave it any more. He performed a miracle in my life.
Now, it didn't just happen because I knelt down and prayed. I had to come to a point of realization first. I had to admit that I was in over my head and that I couldn't do it anymore. I had to fully come to Him, admit defeat, and really, deeply understand that He has all power to deliver me. And then He did it.
I really encourage anyone who wants to learn more about this to go to the top of the page where it says "search blog" and put "chocolate" into the search. You'll find all the blogs about my struggles, and you'll find the things I've done that have really helped. But not one thing you ever do to overcome an addiction will work until you turn it over to God completely. He is the only one who can do it, and we have to allow Him to do it.
I never thought, in a million years, that I would get to the point where I could say I no longer crave chocolate. That's because I was doing it on my own. I thought I was tough enough to do it. Yeah, well, not hardly. But He is, and He did it for me. I am a walking, talking, non-chocolate eating miracle. I can't even express the gratitude I have to Him for doing it. I have so much hope for my future now that I didn't have before. I honestly thought I was going to end up weighing a thousand pounds and have my own special on TLC. Sure, that's a joke, but it's only partly said in jest -- my weight was out of control.
I do realize I'm rambling, but it's late and I'm tired. Suffice it to say, it can be done. It really, truly can. If I can do it, absolutely anyone else on earth can.