I bet you didn't know you could have deep thoughts about peach rings. Well, it takes a special kind of talent, but it can be done.
You'll recall that a year ago, August 2007, I gave up chocolate. It was a necessity for me-I was eating a lot of it, ruining my health, and making it my source of comfort instead of turning to God to give me strength. I went chocolate-free with the Lord's help.
During that time, I discovered that other things could also taste good. I'd always headed right for chocolate in the past, but I learned that cinnamon is delicious, Swedish fish have always been a favorite, and I rediscovered gummy peach rings, something I'd gotten from time to time as a child.
After nine months of being chocolate-free, I did indulge again, and now I do eat it from time to time, although not as compulsively as before. But I've learned something else.
It wasn't the chocolate that was the problem. It's food that is the problem.
Taking the chocolate away was one thing. It showed me that I do have the ability to turn away from something I love. That was vital knowledge, because I didn't think I could do it before. I honestly give all the credit to Heavenly Father for stepping in and taking that over for me. I could not have done it alone.
But the problem extends much deeper than just chocolate. It's food. Pure and simple. It almost doesn't seem to matter what kind-I just like it. I'm kidding myself if I think that going chocolate-free is the answer to my problems, when I'm still eating all the other goodies that are out there. Substituting gummy peach rings for chocolate doesn't work if I'm eating gummy peach rings every time I get upset.
With all of this ruminating comes the realization that until I tackle my addiction to food in a broad-spectrum way, it never will be conquered. So I'm going back on the twelve-step program I used to get off the chocolate, and I'm going to tackle food as a whole. Going off the chocolate showed me that it can be done, and now I need to apply those principles I've learned to the entire problem. Wish me luck.